Happy Holidays
and
Best Wishes for a Happy New Year
from Alpenglow Images Photography
Last Friday morning, I got up early and drove up to the San Jacinto Mountains near my home. A storm had been in the area and I wanted to go for a hike in the fresh snow, as well as to make some images. Living at low elevation, it felt good to be back in winter for a while. I wanted to hear the sound of snow crunching under my boots. I wanted to breathe deeply and soak up the silence and sheer peace that comes with newly fallen snow. I made some images–some that I’m quite happy with–but the morning would have perfect even if I had not.
As I drove home, I turned on my car radio and slowly started piecing together the events that had happened thousands of miles away in Connecticut. Profound heartbreak is really the only way I can describe the emotions I felt as I listened to the radio, and when I arrived home, I turned on the TV and saw the images. So much devastation, so much innocence needlessly lost.
On Monday morning, I read Guy Tal’s blog post, “Heal Thyself.” His advice on how to heal after this tragedy? Unplug. Go away from the hype, the media, everything, and allow yourself to heal. Today, that’s just what I did. I went to the Mojave Desert and started walking. When I came home, I told myself that although some might consider it cliché or derivative to write about this tragedy, I still feel the need to put words down, so here I am.
As far as days go, today was pretty miserable outside. It was windy and very cold, but I found a lovely and verdant little canyon to hike up. In contrast to the mountains just a while before, it still felt autumn-like in the desert; at least the colors of fall were still around me. Several of the wetter spots I passed through must be hotspots for desert bighorn sheep: droppings were everywhere, and with good reason. Water is hard to come by out here. A little while later, underneath a grove of alders, I found the remains of a desert bighorn. Maybe it fell from the cliff above (not likely) or was killed by a mountain lion. Or, maybe it just found a peaceful place to lay down and die. Either way, I sat quietly with its bones for a little while, enjoying a reprieve from the wind, as well as the solitude.
I hiked a little further up the canyon, exploring mostly, before turning around and walking back toward my car. For the first time in nearly a week, I felt peaceful knowing that hope is not lost. When I got home, I saw reference to Jimmy Carter’s 1979 speech, in which he refers to the nation’s energy crisis as a, “crisis in confidence.” We are getting over something much more visceral than an energy crisis, but those words–crisis in confidence–echo in my head. Events like this, not just at home but abroad as well, shake our confidence to its core. They shake our confidence that hope still exists, and if we are going to continue on, we must find a way to hang onto that hope.
So, I want to thank Guy for his advice, and I want to repeat it as well: unplug yourself from everything and find a way to reconnect with the good in the world.
It hardly seems like a year ago I was writing a similar blog post from Zion National Park. This Thanksgiving, I find myself in Escalante, Utah, a small township located in the heart of the Colorado Plateau. The weather today was unusually warm for this time of year, and it made hiking extraordinarily pleasant, the perfect St. Martin’s Summer. My family and I started the day in the northern Mojave Desert, and ended sitting quite alone on a sandstone outcropping admiring the sunset just outside of Escalante township.
Escalante has some of the darkest night skies in the United States; it is far from electricity, out of the grasp of large metropolises, and tonight I am only blinded by one of the darkest night skies you will ever see. I am thankful places like this still exist.
For my friends in the United States who are celebrating Thanksgiving today, I hope you had a day with your family and friends, celebrating everything in your life that you are thankful for. With some time in the car today, I was thinking about the things I am thankful for. I am grateful for a family who is willing to travel with me. Having stopped in four national parks or monuments today (Zion, Cedar Breaks, Bryce, and the Grand Staircase-Escalante), I am thankful that the citizens of our country have had the foresight to put land aside, for the well-being of our souls, if nothing else. Sun-warmed Navajo sandstone is also on my list, as are sunsets that make me smile.
From the bottom of my heart, let me wish you a warm and happy Thanksgiving, whether you are officially celebrating or not. There is much in life to be thankful for.
The holidays are once again upon us, and I am offering savings on prints and other products.
Prints
I am happy to offer all sizes of prints at 20% off through December 25. Each signed print is made on archival luster paper and is guaranteed to arrive by December 25 if you order by December 10. In addition to the 20% savings, I still am donating 25% of the sales from my ‘Wind’ portfolio to the Wilderness Society. Please visit my purchasing page to learn more about ordering prints.
eBooks
Our eBook, “An Honest Silence: A Celebration of Wilderness” is also 20% off through December 25. You can purchase it right now, and save 20% instantly by entering the code, “holiday” at checkout. Many thanks to all of you who have already purchased a copy, and especially to my friend Jackson Frishman for writing a very nice review of our book here (there is also an excellent Edward Abbey video in the same post). You can purchase the eBook by clicking on this link.
Greeting cards
This year, I am offering greeting cards, which I have never done before. The 5″ × 7″ cards are printed on heavy card stock and are blank on the inside leaving space for your personal note. Envelopes are included. I currently have two designs available, but if you have something special in mind, I’m happy to work with you. The cards are 10 for $20 (+ $5 shipping) or 25 for $44 (+ $5 shipping). I am very excited about the quality of these cards; contact me to order!
Thanksgiving is coming up and the rest of the holiday season will be over before we know it! I hope you have a wonderful holiday season!
The day has finally come…Ann, PJ, and I are very happy to make An Honest Silence: A Celebration of Wilderness available for purchase. We are offering the book as a 48-page, 25.1 MB , PDF download for $5. A portion of the sales will be donated directly to the Southern Utah Wilderness Alliance.
You can download your copy now by clicking here, clicking at the “eBooks” tab at the top of this page, or clicking the “buy now” button at the bottom of this post.
This will be my 266th blog post here at Alpenglow Images, and I’ve learned over the last three years that there is something very gratifying about writing, but at the same time also scary. When you write, you are putting yourself out there…letting the world in. While we want to be accepted, we can easily be judged.
Because of the “risk” involved, the release of this book carries a genuine excitement with it; I hope you enjoy reading it. I want to thank David Leland Hyde as well for writing the foreword; David works harder than anyone I know to perpetuate the legacy of conservation that began with his parents, Philip and Ardis Hyde.
This book represents three voices that are asking for more to rise up in the defense of wild places. We need these open spaces, and cannot live without them. If we are truly successful, you will be moved. Moved to write a letter to a legislator in support of wilderness. Moved take your children hiking. Moved to spend an afternoon under a tree in your favorite wild place.
Will you celebrate with us?
I realize that many of my recent posts have been about life and introspection, and you may be saying, “Hey what happened to the photography?” Well, I have realized over the last few months that it is impossible to make honest images without first taking a good look at myself. As a result, my posts have been more philosophical. Its definitely not a bad thing, as I learn a lot of great things about myself every day. I hope they come through in my images.
Lying at the crossroads of three major ecosystems, I have always thought Zion National Park is a bit of a confused place. The Great Basin, Colorado Plateau, and Mojave Desert collide pretty much at the entrance to Zion Canyon, making for a unique landscape of red rock, datura, and ponderosa pines, one that draws thousands of tourists a year.
Lately I have been thinking about decisions, crossroads, and the paths we take in life. A friend of mine has told me several times that each sunset gives us an opportunity to reflect on our decisions, and each sunrise is a chance to either change them, or stay the course. The more I think about it, that’s a good way to look at life. A few months ago, David Leland Hyde guest-blogged for me and wrote about the decisions we make as photographers. Are we to make our own tripod tracks, letting the world hear our unique voice, or are we to make the derivative iconic images that have been made before? Is that truly original?
I think there’s more buried in David’s post than there initially appears to be. What I am realizing more every day is that my decisions as a person shape who I am as a photographer–these two things are not mutually exclusive. My images are my voice; through them you see the world as I do. To some extent, you see sadness, elation, and melancholy in my portfolio. I can feel the days that creativity is flowing inside of me; its like a warmth deep in my bones. Terry Tempest Williams wrote, “To discount wild beauty is to discount inspiration. Without inspiration, creativity dies.” This must surely mean that with inspiration, creativity can thrive–we can choose to accept beauty, and thus to be creative. Our choices affect us deeply and they shine through in our body of work.
The junction where we find Zion Canyon is arguably one of the more beautiful places in North America. There is a lot of solace here, knowing that each decision we make has the potential to be very positive, both for our general character, and for our art. What we do with that knowledge is up to us.
Over the last few days, I have been contemplating some upcoming trips, and after a friend gave me some advice on a location, I pulled out a map to get my bearings; my memory of this particular area just wasn’t cutting it. I have always liked maps: they tell a story, whether in a particular place name, in my memory of driving through a small town, or of a place I dream to visit. When I was in college, before graduating to more sophisticated wall decor, it was not uncommon for me to put a map on my wall.
As I looked through my map file the other day, a flood of memories came back to me as I recalled roads I have driven, places I have seen, adventures I have had. There’s something more tangible than paper here: these maps of the American West are the landscape of who I am.
The West has shown me what a windchill of -60°F feels like, and that those are perfect days to stay indoors. I know that the radiating heat of 120°F in the Mojave Desert might seem uninviting, but that you can still find active wildlife. My daydreams often drift to lonesome highways, and I find myself craving the feeling (and aroma) of being chest-deep in sagebrush at least every few months. Dusty dirt roads were a staple of my childhood; I’ve had friends who give directions to their houses using landmarks and the words, “bear left at the Y then turn left after the cattle guard.” This isn’t uncommon in the West.
Issues here, whether environmental or social, are hardly ever simple. My approach to many of them is somewhat moderate. I believe in wisely managing some of our public lands for more than one use. The livelihood of many residents here relies on that principle–they count on our natural resources to put food on the table for their families. That said, I watch news stories about things like coal mining, grazing, and dammed rivers closely. As insignificant as some of them might seem, these issues ultimately affect every resident of the West.
I admire the people here who are extraordinarily hard-working; many of them know nothing else. My grandmother is 81 years old and still works hard at least 4 days a week.
At the end of the day, politics do not matter as much as basic respect for your neighbor. I lived in Laramie, Wyoming through many of the events surrounding Matthew Shepard, a gay University of Wyoming student who was killed as a result of what is essentially a hate crime. His murder showed that the rot of hatred and ignorance is indeed alive in the West, but it also brought out the best in people. A few months after things settled down, I was loading my groceries into my car, and I looked at the bumper of a beat up old ranch truck parked next to me. On the bumper was a blue sticker with a yellow, “=”; the sign of equality. Everyone in Wyoming, from farmers and ranchers to liberal progressives, came together in support of common, simple ideals. Stereotypes do not hold much water here; what matters most is your character.
My website will tell you I am a photographer. Indeed, I am. However, I am more than that. I am a citizen of the West. I was born here, have lived here my entire life, and likely will die here. I’m proud of the people who surround me, for their hard work, their vision, their character; all of these ideals are born from the landscape we live in. They are as much a part of the West as the iconic landscapes we all chase with our cameras.
Its either the romantic or Zen Buddhist in me, but I feel like we have a lot to learn from clouds. A dramatic sunset can connect two lovers, just as it teaches us a valuable lesson on impermanence. In thinking about our motivations, inspiration, and voice these analogies can make a lot of sense to an artist. To understand my photographic ‘voice’ a little better, I turned to another type of cloud.
I recently generated a word cloud based on what I think are a few of my representative blog posts in order to gain a better understanding of my own writing and photography. Click the cloud to see it larger.
Some words immediately jump out at me and catch my eye. Canyon. Light. Hope. Utah. Shapes. Life. Believe. Sandstone. Bryce. National. Park.
Why these words? The cliffs and canyons of the Colorado Plateau are a constant source of inspiration and creativity for me. Perhaps its all the hours I spent there early in my life, but now when I need to mourn or celebrate, feel the need for safety and security, am lacking humility, or simply need to escape, I find solace in the red rock wilderness I have come to know so well.
Places like the Kaiparowits Plateau or the Vermillion Cliffs are still wild, largely undiscovered. Sometimes, when I look at them in the distance, I wonder whether humans have ever seen all the features there are to be discovered here. I continue to entertain what may be a naïve hope by believing these landscapes will continue to be protected and loved as they are now, that they will remain unchanged, and give my children and grandchildren a place to visit, possibly even to bring their children someday.
In order to photograph a landscape and capture more than just its superficial beauty, it is my belief that you must first know it, study it, learn about its intricacies and nuances. In my own development, I learned by studying the locations others had visited–by doing homework from a desk chair. But as I slowly grew to learn the places that I call home, my voice started to be heard through my images. To an extent, gear matters, but taking off your gear goggles and focusing energy on introspection and self-evaluation is a start down the road of making truly personal images.
By looking at my cloud, perhaps I didn’t learn anything about myself I don’t already know. However, by studying the words I use over and over again, perhaps, I can learn a little more about my voice, and most importantly what I want my photography to say to the world.
What does your cloud say about you? About your photography?
Almost four years ago, I watched as my son was born, and have been witness every day since as he’s discovered the world. Although there are some perceptions of the world we’re born with, we, to a large degree, come into society as a clean slate. We experiment, learning what works and what doesn’t, we form relationships and opinions.
Yesterday, I celebrated my thirty-third birthday. I feel fortunate to have a comfortable life, an education, a healthy family, and to have experienced some of the most amazing places on this planet. Yet, even after thirty three years, I’m surprised at how much I still have to discover about myself. It seems that the best relationship I continue to form is with myself. During the course of my life, I’ve known joy, love, and have sadly been confronted with loss. I guess you could say I’ve lived a full life, and although I still have much to learn, I do know a few things without question.
Some of my most life-shaping decisions have involved not settling for ‘good enough,’ forcing me to go in search of ‘can’t live without.’ Never settle. Keep looking for it, whatever it is, until you find exactly what you’re looking for. You’ll know it when you find it.
For me, the wilderness has always been a place to heal, to recover from pain and loss. For many of us, this is true. If that’s the nature of loss, what then do we do to confront the loss of nature? We have to ask ourselves this question seriously, and come up with viable, thoughtful, and long-lasting responses. With each passing year, our time to provide a lasting legacy grows shorter.
Finally, a contemplative question. Yesterday on Facebook, someone sent me a birthday wish that really caught my attention: “Don’t know you personally, but know you through your photos. Not much difference, I don’t think.” I know that in my art, it has become increasingly important for my voice to be heard. What does your art say about you?
I haven’t always been able to say this, but in my thirty-third year, I rather like the person I’m getting to know.
The end of another year is upon us, and I stand in awe of how quickly time flies. Hopefully your holiday season is filled with happiness and satisfaction when you look back on 2011. Our house is filled with family right now, and a 3-year-old who is very excited about having Grandma and Grandpa here for a visit, so I’ll probably be pretty quiet on the blog until after the new year. Looking back, though, I am very grateful for this blog, because of all the repeated visitors who have become good friends, and the new visitors, who I hope will become friends in 2012.
Some posts on this blog generated some great discussion in 2011:
To end 2011 on a very happy note, I received word the other day that one of my images (below) was accepted to Yosemite Renaissance 27, a juried exhibit that will be on display in Yosemite Valley from February 24-May 6. Mine was one of 48 pieces selected for the exhibit out of almost 700 entries–I’m very proud and happy to have my work displayed in this exhibit.
I sincerely hope you have a great holiday season, and a wonderful start to 2012! I am looking forward to seeing where the new year takes us…